I know what you're thinking... Where have I been the past month? Well, I've been buried under ambition. Let's be honest, if you're ambitious you are not satisfied with your current situation. Over the past several months I was not satisfied with my current situation. I wanted to reach more youth, I wanted to build my organization, I wanted to become more influential, I wanted to be happier, I wanted more money, I wanted more friends, I wanted to see more places, I wanted to meet more people, I wanted more fame, I wanted to be accepted, I wanted my work to be validated, I wanted more and more and more. I was not satisfied with my current situation and ambitious for more. As a result, I was not able to appreciate anything I have done nor anyone I spent time with.
Since birth, we are programmed to believe that we must pursue happiness. I have come to realize that that is the biggest crock of shit I have ever heard in my short life. As soon as we enter adulthood we are thrown onto a hamster wheel and forced to believe that if we spin the wheel fast enough we will enter a euphoric state worth the leg work. I am here to tell you to stop spinning.
Over the past two years I have been fully invested in my cause of eliminating childhood obesity. I have invested physically by riding my bicycle around the country. I have invested mentally by enduring the day to day challenges of being alone. I have invested financially by departing with $36. I have invested emotionally by leaving my family behind in Sacramento, CA. I have invested spiritually by testing my personal beliefs as I became homeless, trusting all would work out. I spun the hamster wheel as fast as I could towards making a difference and got nowhere.
One month ago, it suddenly became clear. I realized that I didn't have to pursue to be happy... I just had to STOP. And as soon as I stopped, I realized that I was good enough. My organization was good enough. What I have accomplished over the past two years was good enough. Everyone around me was good enough. My family was good enough. I stopped pushing myself and the people around me to get better. WE ARE GOOD ENOUGH.
In my life right now, I have everything I could possibly need. I am GOOD! And so are you, as soon as you STOP to realize it. I am so content that I do not feel the need to finish this blog. I will conclude this blog when I feel like it. Because right now, this blog is GOOD ENOUGH!
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-Teddy
