Who Cares?

I know what you're thinking... Where have I been the past month?  Well, I've been buried under ambition.  Let's be honest, if you're ambitious you are not satisfied with your current situation.  Over the past several months I was not satisfied with my current situation.  I wanted to reach more youth, I wanted to build my organization, I wanted to become more influential, I wanted to be happier, I wanted more money, I wanted more friends, I wanted to see more places, I wanted to meet more people, I wanted more fame, I wanted to be accepted, I wanted my work to be validated, I wanted more and more and more.  I was not satisfied with my current situation and ambitious for more.  As a result, I was not able to appreciate anything I have done nor anyone I spent time with.

Since birth, we are programmed to believe that we must pursue happiness.  I have come to realize that that is the biggest crock of shit I have ever heard in my short life.  As soon as we enter adulthood we are thrown onto a hamster wheel and forced to believe that if we spin the wheel fast enough we will enter a euphoric state worth the leg work.  I am here to tell you to stop spinning.

Over the past two years I have been fully invested in my cause of eliminating childhood obesity.  I have invested physically by riding my bicycle around the country.  I have invested mentally by enduring the day to day challenges of being alone.  I have invested financially by departing with $36.  I have invested emotionally by leaving my family behind in Sacramento, CA.  I have invested spiritually by testing my personal beliefs as I became homeless, trusting all would work out.  I spun the hamster wheel as fast as I could towards making a difference and got nowhere.

One month ago, it suddenly became clear.  I realized that I didn't have to pursue to be happy... I just had to STOP.  And as soon as I stopped, I realized that I was good enough.  My organization was good enough.  What I have accomplished over the past two years was good enough.  Everyone around me was good enough.  My family was good enough.  I stopped pushing myself and the people around me to get better.  WE ARE GOOD ENOUGH.

In my life right now, I have everything I could possibly need.  I am GOOD!  And so are you, as soon as you STOP to realize it.  I am so content that I do not feel the need to finish this blog.  I will conclude this blog when I feel like it.  Because right now, this blog is GOOD ENOUGH!

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-Teddy